Here comes MAY!

Today is the las tday of April, and rain clouds have been looming for days. I'm waiting for it to just open up and pour. I should probably go upstairs and move all of my things away from that leaky window. I should also probably be getting ready for work. I decided today I was going to start looking for a new job, especially when I checked my bank account and my funds were alarmingly low. Just when I think I'm going to make it and not have to stress about overdrafts and late fees, I get a little kick of reality and SURPRISE!

Lucky for me, my other bank account has been unusually high in funds. I guess that extra $50 dollars or so a month that dont' get used from my paychecks on car payements and insurance adds up pretty quick. And boy am I grateful!

So I looked around. Put my resume on Monster, filled out a few applications. I may be working two jobs this summer, but at least I will have some cash flow. It is time for me to grow up and start taking better care of my finances. Something I should have doen the moment I moved out here.

Ok, time to get goin. I have one hour before I have to leave and have yet to shower. Or any of those other necessary things. Including walking the dog.

Until later Mis Amores!

Okay, I give up

Alright, I gave up on that last one. I can't remember two theories of children's are development. Maybe through bloggin I will... or not. I don't really care! I answered all the rest and rocked them, so yeah. Woop.

I can't even focus to blog cause there is something else I want to talk about. But I just can't do it! Sometimes, life is so confusing.

FINALS

I have a take home for one of my classes. And I can't make myself focus. I want to go outside and sit and read. Even though it is super windy out. Take homes are LAAAAAAAME. Especially when you aren't supposed to use your notes. I mean, come on! Not that I need them. But it makes it that much more 'unfun.' ANd hard to focus. I'm only supposed to use 2 hours and 40 minutes and record my start and end time, So far I've used up 45 minutes. I answered maybe five out of 15 questions then started playing on the internet. I am sucha abad student. FOCUS and I would be done by now.

Ok, I will go back now. SHEESH

Stop making junk food healthier!

I mean, really. If I want to eat healthy, I will eat healthy. But I am tired of picking up junk food for its comforting qualities to find they have reduced the amount of salt, or creme filling. Honestly people. I know what I am getting myself into. I am perfectly aware that my finals/break-up diet of a package of cookies and a bag of cheetoh's will certainly lead to an early death. Or at least some sort of health problems. But that's why I balance it out with good meals! That's why I eat apples, and bell peppers and all sorts of good stuff when I don't need my comfort foods.
Today I was really counting on the salty goodness of this tube of pringles, but they are much lower in salt content than I remember. Honestly, chips that come in a tube? Do I REALLY expect them to help me lose weight? NO! I eat them for their tastiness, not quality.
Diet, low fat, sugar free (ok, its ok for diabetics, in fact vital, but for all of us who don't have that problem...) all of it is to trick you! You want something low fat? EAT A VEGETABLE! And stop complaining about your weight and blaming it on my pringles! Take responsibility for your diet. If you eat fatty foods, you will be a fatty. You are what you eat people! And I want to be a tube of salty pringles!

AGAIN

For anyone who remembers, a few months ago I was rushing around the house to get things done, trying to pick up some extra slack cause my poor roomie couldn't walk! I had been studying in her room with my computer and when she needed to go to the pharmacy to get some meds I put all of my things on the coffee table in the livingroom. Books, comuter, lunch dishes. I had eaten the fod, but not quite finished the water. NOT THINKING I left it all together. Well, take her to get her meds, then went out to dinner with my dear Cassandra. Came back to find my cup of water had been knocked over, spilling directly into my computer. I was DEVASTATED.

I replaced my computer (that was a tough one, these things are expensive!) adn made a vow to NEVER EVER EVER! leave anything wet next to my new computer.

Fast forward to today. Normally, I use a waterbottle with a locking lid and carry that around to drink out of. But I left it in Amber's car (oh no! She just left for charlottesville for the week) so Iw as using a cup. No problem. I can drink out of cups... I had it on my nightstand and my computer on my bed. NO DANGER.

Then AMber called and asked me to bake some cookies for a baptism so I packed upall my things and took them downstaris. Completely forgot about the cup of water (today was a little hectic, with all the text-message fighting and being angry and emotional) and drove the cookies out to monument. I came back and went downstairs to finish my paper for my final tomorrow. I saw a large pink cup knocked over. I ran to the table and immediately started drying things. I opened my computer and the mouse was still working so I thought I was safe. Just in case, I ejected Cass's disc. FIve minutes later I heard a strange noise, and havent' been able to turn my computer on since. Really? REALLY? I spilled water on my computer AGAIN? At least this time, I have it covered... I think. I should be able to get it replaced for free. Let's hope. If not, I will be without computer for a while. I can't possibly buy another one. I will just have to smile pretty at ym friends and borrow theirs for my homeworks. And stuff.

Anyway, I have one last project to finish before bed.

Here's to hoping the mac people take pity on me!

One week later

Ok, that was difficult. I won't lie. And I know I repeated some.  The good thing to remember is that there are many things to be grateful for. Even things I don't need.  Such as my computer, or even more, my blog... yeah.  But there are a lot of things that I couldn't live without so it is good to say our thanks every once in a while to remember that we have them.  Yeah, water is available, but how much of our water is undrinkable? So I am grateful that I still have access to clean water. =D

On another story. I am going to share with you the AMAZING projects I have done this semester in my children's literature class.  I am so proud.  I will make one big post next week after class is over over. We still have one project left, so I'll wait on that.

And in OTHER news: THE SUN IS OUT AND IT GETS WARMER EVERYDAY!

So happy.

And in OTHER news. I can carry a conversation in spanish with my first graders. Yay me.

And in OTHER news- I think I am done with this. =D

Things I am grateful for: Part VII (133-154)

154. Macintosh

153. Water Bottles

152. Purple

151. Rainbows

150. Spell Check

149. Fancy Nancy

148. Princess Elizabeth

147. Counting

146. Couches

145. Lunch and Learn

144. Pizza

143. Institute

142. Smiling

141. Springtime

140. My doggie

139. Light bulbs

138. Work

137. Service

136. Stuffed animals

135. Knowledge

134. Legos

133 Best Friends

Things I am grateful for: Part VI (111-132)

132. Lighters

131. Car

130. Barbie

129. Robert Munsch

128. The Paper Bag Princess

127. Learning Centers

126. TEDU 411

125. End of the semester!

124. Finals

123. Connecting

122. Cell Phone

121. Popcorn

120. Computer

119. Blogging

118. Fingers

117. Spell Check

116. Spanish

115. Electricity

114. Pictures

113. Memories

112. Letting go

111. Numbers

Things I am grateful for: Part V (89-110)

110. Water

109. Rain

108. Thunder

107. Lightning

106. Clean sheets

105. Pillow

104. Clean pillowcase

103. Clean blanket

102. Washing machine

101. Dryer

100. Flat iron

99. "pampers"

98. "webbed feet"

97. Children's literature

96. Author celebrations

95. Cookies

94. Toothbrush

93. Toothpaste

92. Milk

91. Soft Towels

90. Shampoo

89. Conditioner

88. Bobby Pins

Things I am grateful for: Part IV (67-88)

88. Church

87. Sacrament

86. Sunday School

85. The Book of Enos

84. The Liahona

83. Conference

82. Relief Society

81. Good Shoes

80. Dresses

79. Jewelry

78. Make-up

77. The Atonement

76. Testimony

75. Living Prophets

74. The Restored Gospel

73. Conversation

72. Babies

71. Plan of Salvation

70. Eternal Families

69. Prayer

68. The Priesthood

67. Hymns

Things I am grateful for: Part III (45-66)

I'm very bad at doing this on time... whoops

66. Grills

65. Good friends

64. bell peppers

63. onions

62. chicken

61. shrimp

60. strawberries

59. oranges

58. mangoes

57. kiwi

56. tomatoes

55. whole foods

54. corn

53. salt

52. pepper

51. kale

50. fire

49. flip flops

48. shorts

47. summer nights

46. music

45. target

44. cooking

Things I am grateful for: Part II (23-44)

(Woops... I forgot yesterday. Just pretend. shhhh)

44. Warm weather

43. rowdy children

42. Sand

41. Pop-tarts

40. Opportunity for good conversation

39.  Ability to experience emotion

38. New friends

37. Markers

36. Having a plan

35. Running 

34. Freshly cut grass

33. Being Barefoot

32. My five senses

31. Cold water on a hot day

30. Love

29. Free popcorn

28. Being able to see the end

27. Cookies

26. vivid colors

25. changing seasons

24. Snuggly blankets

23. Relief Society

22. Chirping birdies

Things I am grateful for: Part I (1-22)

22. Sunshine

21. Warm Bed

20. Scriptures

19. Ensign

18. School

17. Computer

16. House

15. Curious Doggy

14. Car

13. Ticklish Children

12. Laughter

11. My Roommate

10. Cheetoh's

9. Hot Showers

8. Wheaties

7. Shoes

6. Friends

5. Reading

4. Barnes & Noble

3. My Mom

2. My Family

1. My Planner

That stupid bus finally hit me.

Well, that was fun. PSYCH!  Let's just throw it back a couple decades huh?

Alright, so, since I had such a wonderful day yesterday (PSYCH) I have been inspired to blog everyday for the next week ONLY about the things I am thankful for.  I am 22 years old... so I will pick 22 things each day.  Goin mom style here. In the end I should have well over 100 things I am grateful for.

I started doing this in my prayers about a month ago.  I went for about a week, maybe a little longer, where I only gave thanks.  I just, wasn't feeling my best self and wasn't feeling like I should be asking for anything or complaining, so I put forth my best effort to show gratitude.  And now, I shall share it with the world! Mwahahahaaa!

Keep in mind, 22 different things each day is a challenge.  I will be getting very creative, and specific.  Please, bare with me.

The new Friday night (my reading list updated, or, what I do instead of homework and going out on Friday nights)

I started a new book.  I finished all the reading I had to do for my literature class to date, so I took some time to do my own reading.  Since the newest book in the Ivy League series hasn't come out yet (I'm waiting for you Tap & Gown!) And I hadn't yet made it to Barne's & Noble to pick up the next book in the Blue Blood series I found in the teen section (don't make that face.  Reading is reading.) I started a book I picked up from the non-fiction section.  I was looking for a book for Amber about President Lincoln ( I was still stressing abut her birthday gift because I couldn't for the life of me remember any of things she had not so subtly be hinting at for the past month except for a teapot.  Which I later remembered to be perfume.  Don't ask how I got that so mixed up. I have no idea.) This one was on the shelf above all the Lincoln books and was all shiny with the fancy lettering and everything.  I picked it up and read the introduction, and was hooked.  I brought it home and left it in my car (cause I am too lazy to take things out... I still have luggage in there from december) and was able to pick it up when we were house hunting and had a little time on our hands between appointments.  Bitter is the New Black (Confessions of a condescending, egomaniacal, self-centered Smart-ass, or why you should never carry a Prada Bag to the unemployment office). It's a memoir about a successful woman that gets laid off shortly after 9/11 and has to deal with not having the financial security to shop and pamper herself all the time as she has become accustomed to doing.  And she uses sarcasm at every opportunity.  Including footnotes for further smack-talk.  I LOVE it. Because I appreciate good sarcasm and well-earned verbal beatings.  

By the time I had read about twenty pages I knew I was going to be needing all the rest of the books in her series of memoirs.  I am coming for you next!  All of you!

I picked up the rest of my teenvamp stories... just to complete the series.  Gotta do it.  I was horrified to find that while the first two are available in paperback only, the third is in hardback.  What?! What is wrong with you Barnes&Noble!  I come to you to complete a set, but you can't even make them match? I am so disappointed. But I bought them anyway. And will read them.  They are at the top of my list.  As long as they are finished by July so I can read Tap & Gown!

It's like... watching the bus run you over

You know that feeling you get before you have an emotional breakdown?  You can feel it coming, but its not quite there yet.  Your eyes are all tingly, your chest gets tight and you feel it coming on. But then it doesn't.  I think maybe the waiting part is the worst part.  The longer you wait the more you know it's going to hurt when it finally comes.  

A wise- or maybe not so much wise as clever.  And maybe not so much clever as... something else. I dunno- person said to me:

It's like when I'm playing basketball.  I can see the basketball coming towards my head, and I know its going to hurt when it hits my head, but I can't stop it and I can't move out of the way.  I just have to wait and watch as time slows until it hits me.  And then it hurts.

So close!

Woopwoop! Guess who gets to move again!  We were so close to having a move free summer, and then... dun dun dunnnnn ... events transpired. 

What is a summer without moving anyway?  I mean, really, its all about starting over right?  Might as well get all the moving bugs out of my system before I graduate, cause I mean, really, I can't just up and move every summer when I enter the real world, now can I?

Best start packing up the things I don't need at the moment, get them ready for their big day!

Web of emotions

It's hard to discern what emotion you are experiencing when you have so many different things going on at once.  So many emotions are happening, they cancel each other out.  And then its like, which one makes me sad? Which one makes me happy? Which one am I scared of?  Why am I angry? Do I have this glimmering feeling of hope because of this thought that just crossed my mind or that one?  Which way am I supposed to go?  

I'm sure writing about it would help, but I just don't want to.  I'm too tired from wearing all of these feelings everyday and trying to keep up with school and giving my last burst of energy to my kids to keep them happy and on a good track.  Cause when I'm happy and excited, they are.  ANd when I am tired and angry, they act out.  Not an impossible task, it just takes a lot!  But I wouldn't trade it for the WORLD. 

I love my kids.  I love to hug them and tickle them and give them projects and see how proud they are when they finish and how each one of them is so different and can do the same project that turns out in such different ways.  I love to be there for them when they have exciting news like "all star student of the week," or a good report card, or a new sibling, or just to hear how excited they are to go home and have family pizza night.  I wish I could have them for more time, and give them more and help them to get out of their situation.  Or at least inspire them to try harder.  I fear for many of them when they leave us, who is going to push them to do their homework every night?  And even if they have that, how many of their parents/grandparents/guardians are going to make them do it over until they have put their best effort into it?  And how often will they be told they are important and can do anything they want and give them the support to reach those goals?

Well, there's one thing that is on my mind, I guess I've gotten that one sorted out!  Only a thousand more to go.